Mirror Image...

Can you honestly say you know someone very well?

Public self VS Private self.

Every one, or rather given myself too, have a certain image

we pose to our friends, family and the general public.

One can be extremely patience and lovable to friends,

but are they the same towards their family?

Likewise, you often think you know your friends or someone very well,

but do you?

I should have known better given the industry I'm in.

Does time really play an important part in knowing someone well?

More so or other, you often hear your gfs telling you

so and so is not who you think they are, you don't understand.

Many a times, you think your gf is delusional; in denial.

Are they?

When realization hits; you really don't know the person,

sadness surrounds you.

It hit me today.

Sadness lingered for an hour or so,

I was fine after, or I convinced myself.

I should have known better.

Period.

No time for shit....

Have been extremely busy with moving house.

When people say moving is a bitch,

MOVING IS REALLY A BASTARD!!!

So many things to do!!!!

Sorry for the mini hiatus.

It's very hard to blog at home as my lappy is missing her charger.

Does anyone know if Sim Lim sells fake Macbook chargers?

I'm so not gona spend S$ 150 on it.

Yes, Apple stores are selling the authentic ones at that price!!

Lots to update, little time left.

If I appeared too busy to some of you,

THAT IS BECAUSE MOVING IS A BASTARD!!!

This is it, a true legend.

Directed by Kenny Ortega

Tagline: Like You've Never Seen Him Before

Plot:

A series of interviews, rehearsal and footages as Michael Jackson

prepares for his sold out concerts in London.

I don't really know what genre this movie falls into.

I mean, it is stated as a documentary.

But, it just doesn't sit well with me.

It's more like connecting all his footages and snippets of his rehearsal

to form an almost 2 hours show.

But I must say,
This Is It has definitely make a bigger MJ impact

on me than compared to hearing news of his death.

When he died and the whole world was mourning for a lost legend,

I didn't feel anything.

No pity, sadness, no nothing.

I think I would feel more even if a stray cat got

knocked down by a car.

I thought the whole death saga was so

blown outta proportion.

He should just be buried and moved on from there.

When thrillers and posters of this show were up,

I was like "OMG!! How much more do they wanna milk the cow?"

Never would I think of catching this show.

Hahaha. Never say never.

I got invited to the gala event.

It's free, my friends are going, why not?

I'm such an immature young ignorant girl!!!!

Though, they weren't any interviews with him, only footages of his rehearsals,

interviews with his co-workers, this movie provided me a much needed

insight to the legend.

I was completely blown away.

He was so humble, so dedicated to his work.

His moves, oh god, at 50 years old and dancing like that.

So fluid and smooth. The King of Pop.

I can't exactly remember at which point sadness creeped in.

I was truly feeling the lost of a great performer.

The movie totally changed my perception of him.

Fortunately, they decided to produce this flick,

it converted the skeptical and unappreciative trait I had for him.

Forget the scandals, surgeries, rumours, the mysteries.

Kenny Ortega's simple and respectful tribute to MJ further makes me

honour this incredible artist.

A true legend.

New MJ Converts.

We are sorry for being ignorant!!

My Sister's Keeper's Weeper..

Adapted from the fictional novel by Jodi Plcoult,

My Sister's Keeper is definitely a weeper.

Directed by Nick Cassavetes.

Plot:

Conceived by means of invitro fertilization, Anna Fitzgerald (Abigail Breslin)

was brought into the world to be a genetic match for her

older sister, Kate (Sofia Vassilieva), who suffers from acute promyelocytic leukemia.

Filing for medical emancipation, Anna Fitzgerald sues her

parents for the rights of her own body.

Finally caught this show.

It's definitely one of those tearjerkers.

Prior watching, I kept reminding CH I need to get tissues.

hahahah.

OK, maybe I thought I would tear much, but

no, I was crying like no tomorrow till my eyes were red, 20 minutes after the

show started to the end!

Nonstop!!

Yes, ladies..please bring tissues.

In the midst of watching the show, it suddenly hit me.

This show is about cancer,

shit, how blur and insensitive of me!

Looking at him, he seems ok watching the show, but I know

grief is looming around.

*Sigh*

Time heals all pain.

As cliché as it sounds, I really do believe in it.

Waigong will be in our hearts forever.

Now, on a lighter note,

more on my take for the movie...

My initial reaction was: "Isn't Cameron Diaz abit too young to play mother roles?"

But, I have to say she did seemed very realistic and comfortable

as a mother of 3.

Ironically, she didn't look the part as being a high-powered lawyer though.

However, kudos to her performance.

She can finally discard her comedy label.

Overall, the show started well.

The struggle between life or death was not only evident

for the middle child, Kate, but for the whole family.

The undying perservance of the mother, love from the siblings

and responsiblities the father shoulders make this film heartwarming.

The portrayal of an adolescent cancer-stricken patient by Sofia Vassilieva

is commendable. Her combination of an angty adolescent with the pride

and vanity of a young girl losing her hair and life slowly is remarkable.

The pain, frustration and heartbreak was delivered perfectly.

However, as it progresses, it becomes predictable.

I was whispering the outcome to CH when it was reaching its climax.

Fortunately, the stellar performances across the board saved the day.

I heard the book is much better though.

Time to hit the bookstores.

A Lot went down the week..

A lot of random stuff to blog about.
Mainly too many stuff happened during the week and
just decided to mesh everything up into one entry.

Lazy Ol' me.


1. Cremation

All's said and done.
Tears aplenty.
I can only say I did my best.

2 days after cremation, ironically, I have studio filming.
It was all about my "WaiGong" dying in hospital.
The timing of events!! Sheesh.
Well, art imitating life imitating art I guess.

Tears aplenty again.

My co-workers were so amazed at my tear ducts that day.
5 crying scenes in hospital, I cried non stop.
IT WAS SERIOUSLY FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE,
MY EYES GRADUATED TO WATER TAPS!!!



2. Sunnydale

I have 3 weeks left to pack everything.
PACKING IS A BIT*H.
Yen and I had the same bed in mind.
But after seeing how much space the queen took
in his room, I'm seriously reconsidering.

3. The Chat with the Boss

I love random chats I have with my dad when we are in the car.
I can't remember how did we even come to these topics.

Names parents give to their children

I don't know what we were talking about.

All I could remember was dad telling me about a Malaysian

Japanese car fanatic naming all his children

the names of jap cars he like.

Example (Using Tan as the surname):

Honda Tan

Mitsubishi Tan

Mazda Tan

Suzuki Tan (My dad says this is confirmed a girl's name)

Toyota Tan

Nissan Tan

from this we diverted to

Equality of woman.

I always feel this though.

Like whatever men does, they get praises around.

Change it to woman, all else remains the same,

we are sluts!

Really.

Ok, I may be generalising it too much.

But you get the idea.

Why are we always seen as the weaker sex?

Lord and behold,

my dad said this......

"Aiya, it's ok one, there is a time when woman were in control.

It shifts, changes from era to era."

I looked at him weirdly.

You mean in certain cultures and society right?

This I agree with you, I said.

No..I mean in EVERYTHING, he said

If you go google and study history way way way back, it shows that

there is a "fu xin shi dai"

and a "mu xin shi dai", he said.

Apparently, according to my dad,

there have been, and will have, a time when Woman are in

totall control; Men to be seen as the weaker sex.

I tried googling...

nothing of this sort came out.

!#$%^&

Last Night...

Tomorrow will be the cremation.

Tonight is the last day.

I know I'm not exactly doing a great job

at being strong at the funeral.

But I just can't control.

Everyday I go, everyday I cry.

Lei Yi, one of the Aunts, told me the kids were

planning to go Aunt Carol's place every week for pot luck session,

spend time with the grands.

Everyone contributes $5 to buy food.

Waigong & Waipo were very happy about it.

Then she said " But Waigong didn't manage to wait for the

day to come"

How am I suppose to react to that?

She told me to come along when I can, at least to visit Waipo.

HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO REACT TO THAT.

When you are with somebody for that long,

his family becomes yours.

When things turn sour,

things are just awkward.

*SIGH*

I would love to hang out like usual,

as idealistic as everyone says I am,

reality doesn't allow that.

My mother scolded me for attending the wake,

saying why can't I draw the line clearer.

Things are already like this now, why do I still bother to go

and make it awkward for myself.

I WAS FURIOUS!

I SCOLDED HER BACK AND STORMED OUTTA THE HOUSE.

Someone died, someone I regarded as my family,

how can I not turn up even if I get stares?

Especially those who don't even know me,

or know him well at all.

After the cremation, I have filming.

Filming the opening by the EP himself.

I know my eyes can't be swollen,

but how can I not go?

I wish someone could understand how I feel.

He should know.

*Sigh*

I don't expect anything from him anymore I guess.

I'm sure he feels the same.

I make him uncomfortable I guess.

Tonight is the last night.

The grand I love..

I don't know what to say.

The very thought makes me tear.

You could have told me.

You know very well I would want to be there.

I'm not angry.

I just don't understand.

I gave myself a million reasons.

*Sigh*

I looked upon him as my grandfather too.

I love him too.

I know you.

I know how you feel.

I know you way better than you think I do.

I know how you feel about Waigong.

Likewise I hope you will know how I feel too.

I wanted to give you a hug, I wanted to cry in your arms,

only you will know how I feel.

But we didn't.

Why!

Why till now, you still can't put it aside?

*sigh*

I'm dying inside too you know.

I have to go work, smile at clients, act normal,

maybe for once, being an actor helps.

I had to cry to my dad at office.

He said, Waigong will be happy in heaven.

I deal with it my way, may it be wrong to some.

But that is how I cope.

Please be strong.

You have to be strong for Waipo.

I no longer know how to reach to you anymore.

I...

*sigh*

I don't like losing people.